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There’s a lot to say about Rick Murray. He’s nerdy, smart, a bit of a mama’s boy and even dangerous.
I mean he did put Terri into a COMA.
And yet you're dating him.
Yeah you’re probably going to hell.
Yes you're secretly dating ‘I put a girl in a coma’ Rick. You know that he has his…flaws but he’s trying to be a better person! I mean so far he’s been pretty nice to you, gentle even.
But there’s still one issue that he seems to struggle with: Possessiveness.
Which is why you’re in the situation that you are now.
Just a few minutes ago he gave you a creampie and now you're sitting in his bed waiting for him to come back with a bottle of water.
Yeah you’re definitely going to super hell.
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Honestly you hated him at first, I mean who wouldn’t? He’s an abusive loser with anger issues.
When he came back to Degrassi you chose to avoid him at first, until you were assigned a project with him.
Force proximity is one hell of a bitch.
Since you were forced to talk to him, you did and it wasn’t so bad...
He’s weirdly charming and cute. You two grew closer and closer until he kissed you when you were both alone in the library finishing up the project. Then he confessed to you and called you his “Guiding light in a sea of darkness.”
How dramatic.
Well he sorta had to be, you were one of the few people who would talk to him. Which is why you had to keep your relationship a secret. You still talked to him at school but you had to act like you were just friends.
Well technically less than that. I mean if people saw you kissing him it would be social suicide as mean as that sounds.
Rick understood that, he even said that he didn’t want you to become a target for Jay and Spinner. Honestly they would probably be concerned for you if anything. I mean once again he put a girl in a coma accident or not.
At first the incident with Terri was something that you two didn’t talk about. It was the elephant in the room. It wasn’t until Alex saw him talking to you in the hallway, she passed by and said “Careful Y/n he might put you into a coma next.”
You could tell that really upset him.
You and he would meet at his house after school, his father works a lot and his mother works less but still has a job that keeps her coming home late which leaves plenty of hours after school for some alone between you and him.
The day that Alex said that to you he was so clingy after school.
You were sitting on the couch watching tv, Rick had his head in your lap. You were playing with his hair when he looked up at you and said “You know I would never hurt you right?”
You were silent, I mean you couldn't say “yes” confidently with his record with other women.
He got up from your lap and moved to sit next to you. “You know that right?” he repeated urgently.
You chose your next words carefully not wanting to upset Rick but also to be realistic. You did have feelings for Rick, but he still had a lot to work through.
“Rick I do care about you, you’ve treated me nicely but the whole incident with Terri is like this dark cloud that’s always there.”
“I mean it’s the reason why everybody doesn't like you.”
You sigh “I just have trouble trusting you all the way because you never address it.” “Like today with Alex you clearly were upset but you just acted like it didn’t happen.”
Rick spoke up “I…” he stopped speaking, his fingers moving nervously. He paused for a moment before speaking up again.
He gently grabs your hand “Y/n I would never hurt you, I know I've done bad things and I'm unlearning them, but I care about you so much.” “I want to give you the world.”
You pull away your hand “Rick you can’t just buy me things and for that to make for a good relationship.” “Are we ever gonna talk about it?”
Rick's fingers started to move again nervously “Fine, what do you want to know?”
You ask him a question immediately “Was it an accident?”
Rick answered “Yes it was, I was just so angry and in the heat of the moment I pushed her and she fell and hit her head on the rocks.”
“I think about how I treated her and I feel so disgusted with myself.” “I’ve been learning in counseling that the reason why I get so angry is because of my father…”
“He used to get angry when I was a kid, he would yell a lot.” He started to breathe heavily, his eyes pricking with tears.
“Oh brother here it comes” you thought
“After she hit the rocks…I went to check on her, I had her blood all over my hands.” He started to cry. “The shock of the situation hit me, I realized how bad of a person I’ve been, I thought I killed her-I thought I killed my girlfriend."
He was sobbing now, ugly crying and all.
You guided Rick into a hug, he just cried into your chest. You played with his hair in an attempt to comfort him.
You grew closer that day.
Then the paint incident happened.
Rick, Jimmy, Emma and Toby were all on the quiz team. Since Rick sorta had a friend group who would stick up for him and a secret girlfriend (you) Rick thought things were looking up.
Until paint and feathers were poured all over him in front of everyone after he won the quiz show for Degrassi.
You were in the audience watching, you went out to check on him. He was far from being ok.
So you went to the place you guys always go to: His house.
His parents weren't home.
You helped him clean up and after he took a shower he came to cuddle with you in his bed. You two talked for a while, he needed to. He was so vulnerable at that moment and you comforted him.
Which leads to what happened next: You had sex.
Yeah…
It probably wasn’t the best idea to lose both your virginities to each other after he experienced something like that but you did.
It was messy but loving. During the whole thing he kept saying “I love you.” over and over.
Your life is such a mess.
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Which leads to the routine you have now.
You act friendly towards him at school but appear far from being close.
You come over to his house after school and hangout or fuck or both.
If you do fuck it’s for mutiple rounds and he always creampies you beccause he’s a posseive little shit.
You cuddle and he acts all lovey dovey like he didn’t rearrange your guts.
You're currently still in his bed after he ever so lovingly rearranged your guts.
You sit there for a few minutes until Rick finally comes back from the kitchen to give you a cold bottle of water and a little snack pack. He smiles “Here you are my love.”
You take the water bottle and say “Thanks.” you drank the water feeling the cold liquid go down your throat. Then you noticed Rick staring at you.
“What are you staring at?” you say bluntly.
“Oh I was just looking at how beautiful you look dear.”
You pause before sighing “Whatever.”
Rick smiled and then laid in the bed and cuddled you from behind.
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The next day you were in the hall getting your books from your locker when Paige came up to you.
“Hey Hun, can I talk to you for a sec?” she said.
You turned to her “Oh uh sure.”
“I’ve noticed that Rick’s been getting more touchy with you when he thinks no one’s looking.”
“Like I noticed when that fight happened earlier and everyone was distracted he had his hand on your lower back.”
Her tone was calm but clearly angry “If that freak is bothering you know I can-”
You cut her off.
“Paige, it’s fine.” “I know that geek boy has been getting more touchy but I've already talked to him about it.” “Trust me, I can handle myself.”
She gives you a look “Y/n.”
You pause before smiling “Paige don’t snitch on me but I slapped him.” “That’s how I took care of it, alright?”
She smiles “You did?
You nod.
“Well since you have yourself handled hun i’ll just be on my way now."
She walks down the hall smirking at Rick as she passes by him.
Rick looks at you confused. It makes sense you didn’t slap him. Was it messed up to lie to Paige like that? Yes. But you couldn’t tell her the truth about your messy toxic relationship.
You close your locker thinking about how the routine is going to repeat itself. How you just lied to the girl who’s friend got put into a coma by the guy who’s going to rearrange your guts in a few hours.
Yep it’s certain you're going to hell.