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• This Is How It Feels by PerpetuallyTiredGay

  Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

  • Explicit
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  19 Jun 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Lemar Hoskins/John Walker
  • James "Bucky" Barnes/Sam Wilson
  • John Walker (Marvel)
  • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
  • James "Bucky" Barnes
  • Mentioned Lemar Hoskins
  • Mentioned Sarah Wilson (Marvel)
  • Mentioned AJ Wilson
  • Mentioned Cass Wilson
  • Mentioned Riley (Captain America Movies)
  • Mentioned Steve Rogers
  • Blood and Gore
  • Blood
  • Gun Violence
  • Revenge
  • John Walker Dies (Marvel)
  • Canonical Character Death
  • Post-Canon
  • Lemar Hoskins Haunts the Narrative
  • Character Death
  • Implied/Referenced Character Death
  • Kidnapping
  • Beating
  • Murder
  • Psychological Trauma
  • Goodbyes
  • Crying
  • Grief/Mourning
  • John's a total fucking maniac
  • like he's got more than a few screws lose
  • he is NOT redeemable at all here
  • Letters
  • Mentioned Valentina Allegra de Fontaine
  • Hallucinations

  Summary

  I know this is cliché, but revenge really is a dish best served cold.

  Basically, John refuses to suffer alone and not in the good way.

  Series

  • Part 13 of Battleagent Brained

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  5,127

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  2

  Kudos:

  8

  Hits:

  93

• Are You Happy With Yourself? (No) by PerpetuallyTiredGay for agent_4

  Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

  • Explicit
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  31 May 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Lemar Hoskins/John Walker
  • Lemar Hoskins
  • John Walker (Marvel)
  • James "Bucky" Barnes
  • Valentina Allegra de Fontaine
  • Ava Starr
  • Robert "Bob" Reynolds (Marvel)
  • Yelena Belova
  • Alexei Shostakov
  • Olivia Walker (Marvel)
  • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
  • John Walker's Son (Marvel Cinematic Universe)
  • Lemar Hoskins's Mother
  • Lemar Hoskins's Father
  • Mel (Thunderbolts 2025)
  • Suicide
  • Guilt
  • Suicide Notes
  • Afterlife
  • Blood and Gore
  • Self-Hatred
  • John Walker Dies (Marvel)
  • Hugs
  • Kissing
  • Love Confessions
  • Angst
  • Mentioned Karli Morganthau
  • Aftermath
  • Apologies
  • Mentioned Riley (Captain America Movies)
  • Crying
  • Canonical Character Death
  • Non-Canonical Character Death
  • Wakes & Funerals
  • Mentioned Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
  • any unnamed characters in canon have names here
  • I hope I covered everything
  • Mentioned Steve Rogers

  Summary

  Yep, it's that time once again. John Walker suffering hour bigger and more soul crushing than ever before.

  Brought to you by a very tired gay guy.

  Good Ol' Johnny's going bye bye and no one's around to stop him.

  Series

  • Part 11 of Battleagent Brained

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  12,294

  Chapters:

  2/2

  Comments:

  17

  Kudos:

  20

  Bookmarks:

  3

  Hits:

  229

• Mine, Always Mine by PerpetuallyTiredGay

  Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

  • Explicit
  • Rape/Non-Con
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  22 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Rape/Non-Con
  • Lemar Hoskins/John Walker
  • John Walker (Marvel)
  • Lemar Hoskins
  • Sexual Assault
  • Frottage
  • Kidnapping
  • Non-Consensual Drug Use
  • Swearing
  • Lemar Hoskins Lives
  • Non-Consensual Kissing
  • Forced Orgasm
  • John isn't married here btw
  • Also he's totally batshit
  • Mentioned Sam Wilson (Marvel)
  • Mentioned Bucky Barnes
  • Mentioned Karli Morganthau
  • Rape
  • Mind Break
  • Angst with No Happy Ending
  • Non-Consensual Oral Sex
  • Crying
  • Non-Consensual Groping
  • Anal Fingering
  • Anal Sex
  • Creampie
  • im so sorry lemar

  Summary

  John doesn't handle Lemar almost dying very well, so he does something very bad to keep him safe. Like really bad.

  Series

  • Part 6 of Battleagent Brained

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  10,738

  Chapters:

  2/2

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  4

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  327

• Stranger Danger by PerpetuallyTiredGay

  Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

  • Mature
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  01 Mar 2026

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Lemar Hoskins/John Walker
  • Lemar Hoskins
  • John Walker (Marvel)
  • John Walker Dies (Marvel)
  • Alternate Universe - Vampire
  • Biting
  • Blood Drinking
  • Guilt
  • Murder
  • Accidental Death
  • Kissing
  • Blood and Injury
  • Stabbing
  • Human/Vampire Relationship
  • Angst with No Happy Ending
  • Fire

  Summary

  Good God, it's been a while hasn't it?💀 In my defense, I've never written anything about vampires before, so ya boy was stumped for a while. But, anyway enough about me.

  Lemar lives in a small town where vampires are now an active threat. He's completely unprepared to face one, so what happens when one knocks on his door?

  Series

  • Part 12 of Battleagent Brained

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  4,560

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  4

  Hits:

  58

• 100% Heterosexual by PerpetuallyTiredGay

  Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe  

  • Explicit
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • M/M
  • Complete Work

  27 Jan 2026

  Tags

  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Lemar Hoskins/John Walker
  • Minor or Background Relationship(s)
  • Lemar Hoskins
  • John Walker (Marvel)
  • Mentioned Olivia Walker (Marvel)
  • Cheating
  • Internalized Homophobia
  • Blood
  • Smut
  • Masturbation
  • Anal Sex
  • Condoms
  • Rough Kissing
  • Oral Sex
  • Pre-Canon
  • Top John Walker (Marvel)
  • Bottom Lemar Hoskins
  • john's still married to olivia here but i didn't wanna clog up the tag
  • Jealousy
  • Homophobic Language
  • Religious Guilt

  Summary

  John develops feelings for Lemar that he doesn't know how to process. Lemar catches on and plays into it.

  Series

  • Part 10 of Battleagent Brained

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  3,928

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  5

  Kudos:

  6

  Bookmarks:

  1

  Hits:

  134